6/27/11

Last Thursday I came up to visit with my cousin's, Megan and Morgan. These two may be twins but they are one of a kind. Morgan is an Eco friendly, animal loving, vegetarian. Megan loves music, animals as well, and hates when people have anything to do with drama. They're both short but they're personalities totally make up for it. They've been together since birth, and hate each other with a Passion that grows every day. Ha ha! I've even heard stories of Megan chasing Morgan through the house with a knife in hand. Last night they're friend Hanna came over. Hanna is an extremely tall, model material, well... Teenage girl explains her perfectly. Last night we all piled up on the couch to watch the movies we rented. One of the happened to be "Into The Wild" Hanna passed out not even half way through. She had to work the next day. This movie really inspired me to be better to Mother Earth. I talked about it a little with Morgan. See I've lived on a cattle farm my entire life. I've been raised knowing god made animals for us to eat. But does it say they have to be miserable while they're alive? No. When I was a baby my mom raised Holstein cows and milked them. Now we just raise black Angus, but we raise one Holstein steer at a time for meat. I told Morgan I wanted to be more Eco-friendly when I eat. She told me, "If you don't want to go full vegetarian, then just eat meat at home. Don't eat it where they're from commercial farms." So, I think I'm going to take that advice. I am also reading one of the books Morgan owns. It is called "Sleeping Naked is Green." I'm going to read this and take advice from it. The book describes a girl who has never been "green" or "Eco-friendly" in her life but make one change for the better every day for a year. This, in a way, describes me. I live on a farm where we have 50 cows, 2 horses, LOTS of hay, and EVEN MORE farm equipment. From Spring to the end of Fall we're running this equipment. There's two ways you could look at it. You could look at it and say "How horrible for the environment!!" or you could look at it in the way I do. These big tractors make a big crop of hay, corn, wheat, and soy bean. These crops make up for very healthy things. Hay to feed the cows and horses on small little farms like mine. Corn does that too. Wheat for whole grain which we all need. And soy bean to make tofu for all you environmentalists who are strong enough not to eat meat. :) When you've lived on a farm your entire life you get to see things like calves running around in the Spring, horses galloping through the fields. You get to see cows giving birth and helping them sometimes. Then sometimes you get to feel that horror when you see buzzards flying in a circle over your Field. You see the devastation of a drought on a working farm. You see what things like a tornado can destroy in less that 5 seconds. You understand the gift of life and you live yours helping the animals that live on your farms. They're may be so many wrong ways to farm. Like the way they do it out in places like California. But out here in Alabama, Tennessee, Georgia, These small farms who don't give they're animals hormones, but let them just live they're life until it's their time. This is how people should be getting they're meat. See, whether you care or not, your still being effected. We're not going to live forever. Why not live life the right way?

seven weeks

last friday was the seven week mark of natehns grounding. god it just makes me so depressed sometimes... when im sad i sit on my roof and talk or pray or cry or whatever i need to do. im gonna try to start blogging more often.. gnight for now.

January 6, 2011

so today is january sixth twenty eleven. sorry my phone isnt letting me do symbols or numbers. anyway, merry christmas and happy new year. over christmas break, i started talking to this guy, nathen. he is amazing. amazing doesnt even describe it. he makes me melt. unfortunately he is grounded from his phone. last week he was using his cousins phone, who just happened to be my best friend. well hes grounded from his phone till who knows when. see its not like his dad just took him phone or had it turned off, he actually had it taken off of the contract. so i have no idea when he gets it back but itll be a while i know. well im gonna go.... see ya. bye

My mom is a Bitch. I hate being sick, too. I stayed out of school today to go to the doc, not because I was to sick to go to school. She wwon't let me go to my old school's basketball game tonight because "I was too sick to go to school, so I'm too sick to go to a game!" Any other parent would be extatic that their child was feeling well enough to go to a game after being sick, but not mine. She makes me miserable. Gah I hate this!!!!!

So, I started high school. It's okay. I'm doing a pretty good job at staying myself and not trying to fit in. It's stressful though. It makes it even worse when your in my situaltion... My parents are divorced. They have split custody. I go to Dad's house every other day, and every other weekend. It's stressful that I have to carry everything I own to school every day. It's stressful when I can't remember which bus to get on. This isn't some pitty sob story where I'm trying to make you feel bad for me. This is just the only place where I can say whatever I want to because someone I know can read it and tell my dad. I don't even think anyone reads this... I tried to tell my dad how hard it is, but he plays the guilt card and I give in every time. Idk...

Gandhi once said: "Be the change you wish to see in the world."
When I think about that I think about what I'm doing here, and the other posts I've posted here. I haven't really put in any effort to change the world. I feel bad about that.
There's a million quotes I could put up on here like:
"Everyone wants to change the way world is, everyone wants to see the world happy, but no one realizes that, to make this world a happy place to live,you have to change yourself-- your heart; and not the world"
When everyone takes off their makeup, washes their hair, washes off their perfume off, and says what they truly believe, says what their heart desires... Greatness can happen!
"When the power of love overcomes the love of power... the world will know peace"
Say hello to people on the street. Say please. Say thank you. Say your welcome. Hug someone. SAY I love you! SAY I appreciate you! DO what you love! BE HAPPY! Enjoy life! Smile! We never know when it will end! Care! Love! Be you!
I can't stress enough that what the world is lacking is care! Go watch the Free Hugs video and tell me it doesn't inspire you. Watch the movie "The Cove". There is so much we could do. Please. For the sake of not just humanity but the world! Please care!

I got a date ;D

"you make me happyyyy
whether you know it or not
we should be happyyy
that's what i said from the start"
Okay so I'm talking to this guy named Michael and he's the greatest. He makes me so happy i can't stand to do anything but smile. When I cry whether I'm sad or because I'm mad, or if I'm scared or worried, he always says... "It will all be okay. I promise. Just focus on me :]" Funny thing is when I do I feel much better.He understands me from all points. We're very much alike also. He plays many instruments.... Trumbone, bass, piano, lots more that I can't even remember haha! He can sing. He can dance. He's funny. He's honest. He makes me happy! So the other day we were talking about being super happy about being happy because we love talking to each other, and he says "So how would you feel about going on a date with me?" WELL OF COURSE I SAY I WOULD LOVE IT!!! well, because we're still sorta young we can't go unchaperoned but thats ok. As long as we're together I'm happy :D
"I love you from your toes to your face:D"