6 Weeks

In 6 weeks in going to Florida. Currently I weigh 175, and my pants size in 12. I'm fat and I know it, but I'm doing something about it. Last week, my mom, her best friend, Kathy, and I have been working out. We walked every other day and did weights all the other days, and have been dieting. We eat 1200 or less calories a day. Day before yesterday I was working out with them. We do a couple excises from buns of steel, we do arm weights, and 2 different ab workouts, one for upper abs, and one for lower abs. My abs were sore the first day but haven't really been sore since. Day before yesterday instead of doing 10 of the buns of steel excises we did 20 and my butt was sore yesterday, and a little today. But I haven't been sore at all anywhere else. It's not like I'm not using enough weights. I did 85 lbs on my leg weights the other day. I barely got through it, but I'm not sore at all. We decided to kick it up a notch. We're going to walk every day, and do weights every other day. Every day we walk I try to jog a little more than I did last time. I don't know why I'm not getting sore. I know if you can do more than 10 reps then you need more weight, and I can barely do 10! I don't know, but I'm about to kick the weights and jogging up. Hopefully I won't get hurt, but I'm not sore which means I'm not doing enough.
I know this blog was a little unorganized, but I'm a little scatterbrained right now.
Mom's home gotta go workout. (;

I HATE SOCIETY!

Yesterday my friend, cousins, and I went on a four wheeler ride. On our way home we came across this dog in the middle of the road. We stopped and gave it some chips and nature valley bars because that was the only thing in the car. We got out and was petting her. We hear these little yelps. We go over to where the sound was coming from and there were three little baby puppies. They didnt even have they're eyes open yet. so I took off my shirt(I was wearing a tank top under it). We wrapped the puppies in my shirt and got the momma dog to get in the car. We took it to Megan and Morgan's Pa's house. He raises dogs and had a kennel there. We put them in there just for an overnight stay. That night we got so much hell. We were griped at and griped at. We just wanted to save four lives. What is the harm in doing that? So we tried calling the animal shelter. We knew there was that chance of them not getting adopted and getting put down, but we thought, "Maybe since the puppies are so small they'll wait a while." Well just to make sure we got two bags of dry dog food, one can of wet dog food, and two bags of puppy food. Well, when we called the animal shelter the operator said it had been disconnected. We called a few times just to be sure. It said the same thing every time. So they're granny called animal control and asked for them to take to a pound for free. They decided to do it. We choked back our tears in saying goodbye to the dog and puppies. We gave the man the food. Then we waved goodbye. We went back to the house, cleaned, ate, and waited for my aunt to get home. When she did get home we slowly found out that everyone had lied to us. They hadn't sent the puppies and mom to a shelter. They sent them somewhere where they may keep them for 24 hours then put them down. This isn't right. I'm so pissed off at the community, at society, at my family, and that stupid man that lied to us and that took our dog food and just feedingus these lives. These puppies and momma dog are lives. They're lives and they had personalities, and a family!! I feel as though I've forcivly been given an abortion. Society is so horrible. People are cold and cruel and I won't be told anything else. We kill animals and little babies. We take homes and we do things that we know are wrong just to earn a buck! The world would be so much better if someone hadn't decided to invent money. It's stupid and it just drives all of humanity crazy!!! How can someone just kill things without it bothering them?!?!?! While I was here in Tennessee I've had a self finding. I'm just so sick and tird of how people treat living things these days!!!! Gah I'm so angry and sad and confused and just overall pissed that I can't even use my knowledge to say anything else. I DON"T KNOW WHAT TO SAY! I don't know what to do! And I just can't do this anymore!!!!!!!

6/27/11

Last Thursday I came up to visit with my cousin's, Megan and Morgan. These two may be twins but they are one of a kind. Morgan is an Eco friendly, animal loving, vegetarian. Megan loves music, animals as well, and hates when people have anything to do with drama. They're both short but they're personalities totally make up for it. They've been together since birth, and hate each other with a Passion that grows every day. Ha ha! I've even heard stories of Megan chasing Morgan through the house with a knife in hand. Last night they're friend Hanna came over. Hanna is an extremely tall, model material, well... Teenage girl explains her perfectly. Last night we all piled up on the couch to watch the movies we rented. One of the happened to be "Into The Wild" Hanna passed out not even half way through. She had to work the next day. This movie really inspired me to be better to Mother Earth. I talked about it a little with Morgan. See I've lived on a cattle farm my entire life. I've been raised knowing god made animals for us to eat. But does it say they have to be miserable while they're alive? No. When I was a baby my mom raised Holstein cows and milked them. Now we just raise black Angus, but we raise one Holstein steer at a time for meat. I told Morgan I wanted to be more Eco-friendly when I eat. She told me, "If you don't want to go full vegetarian, then just eat meat at home. Don't eat it where they're from commercial farms." So, I think I'm going to take that advice. I am also reading one of the books Morgan owns. It is called "Sleeping Naked is Green." I'm going to read this and take advice from it. The book describes a girl who has never been "green" or "Eco-friendly" in her life but make one change for the better every day for a year. This, in a way, describes me. I live on a farm where we have 50 cows, 2 horses, LOTS of hay, and EVEN MORE farm equipment. From Spring to the end of Fall we're running this equipment. There's two ways you could look at it. You could look at it and say "How horrible for the environment!!" or you could look at it in the way I do. These big tractors make a big crop of hay, corn, wheat, and soy bean. These crops make up for very healthy things. Hay to feed the cows and horses on small little farms like mine. Corn does that too. Wheat for whole grain which we all need. And soy bean to make tofu for all you environmentalists who are strong enough not to eat meat. :) When you've lived on a farm your entire life you get to see things like calves running around in the Spring, horses galloping through the fields. You get to see cows giving birth and helping them sometimes. Then sometimes you get to feel that horror when you see buzzards flying in a circle over your Field. You see the devastation of a drought on a working farm. You see what things like a tornado can destroy in less that 5 seconds. You understand the gift of life and you live yours helping the animals that live on your farms. They're may be so many wrong ways to farm. Like the way they do it out in places like California. But out here in Alabama, Tennessee, Georgia, These small farms who don't give they're animals hormones, but let them just live they're life until it's their time. This is how people should be getting they're meat. See, whether you care or not, your still being effected. We're not going to live forever. Why not live life the right way?

seven weeks

last friday was the seven week mark of natehns grounding. god it just makes me so depressed sometimes... when im sad i sit on my roof and talk or pray or cry or whatever i need to do. im gonna try to start blogging more often.. gnight for now.

January 6, 2011

so today is january sixth twenty eleven. sorry my phone isnt letting me do symbols or numbers. anyway, merry christmas and happy new year. over christmas break, i started talking to this guy, nathen. he is amazing. amazing doesnt even describe it. he makes me melt. unfortunately he is grounded from his phone. last week he was using his cousins phone, who just happened to be my best friend. well hes grounded from his phone till who knows when. see its not like his dad just took him phone or had it turned off, he actually had it taken off of the contract. so i have no idea when he gets it back but itll be a while i know. well im gonna go.... see ya. bye

My mom is a Bitch. I hate being sick, too. I stayed out of school today to go to the doc, not because I was to sick to go to school. She wwon't let me go to my old school's basketball game tonight because "I was too sick to go to school, so I'm too sick to go to a game!" Any other parent would be extatic that their child was feeling well enough to go to a game after being sick, but not mine. She makes me miserable. Gah I hate this!!!!!

So, I started high school. It's okay. I'm doing a pretty good job at staying myself and not trying to fit in. It's stressful though. It makes it even worse when your in my situaltion... My parents are divorced. They have split custody. I go to Dad's house every other day, and every other weekend. It's stressful that I have to carry everything I own to school every day. It's stressful when I can't remember which bus to get on. This isn't some pitty sob story where I'm trying to make you feel bad for me. This is just the only place where I can say whatever I want to because someone I know can read it and tell my dad. I don't even think anyone reads this... I tried to tell my dad how hard it is, but he plays the guilt card and I give in every time. Idk...